Yesterday I got to play with Caleb most of the day. That means two things, I had a blast, and, I did not write the Friday blog. So, here’s a blog I wrote a few years ago that fits. We spent week one of Going Deep looking at the things we need to let go of, grudges, self-righteousness, self-dependence, and our own agenda. In week two we will focus on the things we need to hold on to in order to go deep. At the end of this blog, I will give you the scripture reading and the prayer for week two. God bless you and keep Going Deep.
Holding On, Letting Go
It is one of the great challenges of life, how long do I hold on and when do I let go? A few years ago we were fishing and swimming and just chillin’ at the little lake on my sister’s farm. The kids, including my two sons, were swinging on an old rope swing and dropping with a kerplunk into the middle of the lake. In between every jump, they yelled over at me, “C’mon Dad, you try it.” Now I am a wise, mature, solid thinking older gentleman so of course I got up and gave it a whirl. Amazing, exhilarating, a real adrenalin rush. And that was just climbing up on the platform so I could reach the rope. I grabbed this wet, muddy object of so much activity, took a death-hold grip, and sprang out like a gazelle into the upper atmosphere somewhere just above the water and under the leaves of the trees.
Let’s leave our hero suspended in mid-flight to discuss holding on. It’s not a bad idea. There are certainly some appropriate times and places to hold on. Walking along the rim of the Grand Canyon comes to mind. The handlebars of your son’s Harley Sportster is another good place. I can think of a few more. When my grandson wants to get quickly from the car, across the parking lot to Toys-R-Us it is a good idea to hold on, tight. When my wife comes and sits on the couch next to me, even when it is the fourth quarter of the Titans and New York Jets, I have learned the hard way, that’s a good time to hold on.
In fact, holding on is the stuff legends are made of. How many tales do you know of explorers that were ready to turn back but they held on a little longer? Or inventors that held on for one more experiment and then they broke through? War heroes held on against all odds. The rags to riches success models that we follow are all about holding on. Even scripture is full of admonitions to hold on. I Thessalonians 5:21 says to “Hold on to what is good.” Hebrews 10:23 says to “Hold unswervingly to the hope that is within us.” We grew up with Sunday School lessons and youth camp sermons about “holding on to Jesus.” And our favorite spiritual poster is that cat gripping desperately the end of a rope with some applicable Bible verse underneath and the caption, “When you get to the end of the rope, tie a knot and hold on.” You KNOW that is profound!
Holding on is just what we do. It is woven into our DNA. I give Jakson, my one-year-old grandson, a new toy and he holds on. Jon-Mical, the four-year-old plays in the evening outside in the treehouse until he is so sleepy his eyes can barely stay open, and his head drops, but he holds on. We hold on to jobs when they are less than fulfilling. We hold on to habits that we have promised to give up. We hold on to our kids long after they are out on their own. And we hold on to the false confidence that we can fix things when we know we can’t. My mother died a few years ago. I stood by her bed and held on probably long after I should have let go. On the other hand, she seemed to hold on until some special moment or circumstance that we can only guess, was in place. Holding on is as natural as breathing.
And speaking of holding on, what about the hero of our story suspended between earth and sky on the rope swing? We forgot about him. He (me) is still holding on. In fact, that is exactly what I did. I held on while the swing made a glorious arc out over the beautiful, sun-drenched lake. I held on as it paused for a moment, imperceptibly shifting directions, in that second free from the bonds of gravity. I held on as it started its rapidly increasing descent back towards the place from which it had come. And I held on while it whacked me against the muddy bank of the pond and then dropped me unceremoniously into the shallow, moss-covered edge of the water. I lay there enveloped in slime, breath knocked out of me, hand throbbing (found out later it was broken), thinking to myself, “Self, you held on when you should have let go.” And there’s the rub. When do I let go?
Well, the bad news is, I don’t know. The good news is you do. You know if you listen to the heartbeat of God, if you tune your desires to the Holy Spirit, if you take on the mind of Christ, you will know when it is time to let go. You will recognize that sometimes letting go is not only the best thing to do. It’s the only thing. You will understand that if I have any hope of holding on at all I am going to have to let go. There will come a time when you will see that holding on is going to cause more pain and letting go will bring freedom. Does that make sense?
Let me give you three times that come to mind when letting go is better than holding on. First, when you are holding on to hurt. We have all had those moments when we have been so wounded, so unjustly treated, so betrayed that the anger and hurt of that seems to hold on to us as much as we hold on to it. We process it, rehearse it, relive it, analyze it. We hold on to it, sometimes rightly so, to make sure it will never happen to us again. My wife speaks often to other wives who have been betrayed by their husbands. Doris will say to them, “You have to forgive but not today.” There is a benefit is holding on to hurt for a while to help you establish boundaries and keep yourself safe. But….there comes a time, and you know it when holding on to that thing is strangling you. The death grip you have on that perceived wound or unfair treatment is really a hold around your own heart. You HAVE to let it go. The situation may not be completely resolved. You might not feel fully vindicated. You may not have received the full apology that you desired. But it is time to let go and move on. Holding on any longer will only create more hurt and rob your life of joy.
The second time to let go is in a relationship that has become toxic. Listen, there are people that I have loved that in the long run were so unhealthy for me I had to let them go. We’ve all had those, an abusive father, a controlling mother, a legalistic church, a wayward child. Now I don’t mean for any of those that we desert or abandon them. God is a God of reconciliation and Paul says He has given us “the ministry of reconciliation.” We never stop loving. Never stop praying. Never stop believing that God can make things right. But there comes a time when we do that from a distance. When that connection with a sick person is beginning to make me sick too it is time for me to let go. God hates divorce. Our kids will always be our kids. We are to honor our parents. I don’t know exactly how all of this plays out but I do know that in some relationships there comes a time when the right thing to do is to let go. (And trust God!)
Which leads me to the third time of letting go. There comes a time when we are so exhausted, so discouraged, so worn out that letting go is the only option. To hold on any longer is just impossible. The interesting thing about letting go at that moment, maybe at all moments, is that letting go means also, picking up. Listen to what Jesus said, (Matthew 11:28-30) “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke on you and learn from me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and my load is not hard to carry.”
When we let go of the pain and weariness of our life situations, when we let go of those toxic, taxing relationships that are destroying us, when we let go of the hurts, habits, and hang-ups of our past, Jesus says, “You can pick up My peace, My joy, My Hope. When you let go of all that other stuff, you can hold on to Me.” There it is. Hold on and let go at the same time. Drop and pick up all at once. Jesus says we do both. There is a time to hold on and a time to let go. Jesus will let you know when to do both.
So, what are you holding on to today that you need to let go of? What have you dropped by the wayside that you need to pick up again? This is a good time to hold on, to let go, and NOT to grab ahold of a rope swing.
Going Deep Week 2, read Psalm 42 each day.
Monday Psalm 63
Tuesday Isaiah 55
Wednesday John 7
Thursday John 6
Friday Romans 8
Saturday Psalm 84
Sunday Exodus 3, I Corinthians 10, and Luke 13
Here’s a prayer to pray each day: “Lord of Life and Love, Help us to worship You each day in the beauty of holiness so that the holiness of Your beauty may appear in us. Quiet or hearts and strengthen our grip on You, so that we might know and do Your will today.”